veni vidi vici

I've realized that I have a very apathetic attitude towards life-- outside of secluding myself in my room and watching movies on my laptop, I have no hobbies or interests that I act upon whatsoever. I remember the things that I used to do; I used to draw, I used to write, I used to read. I used to somehow express my thoughts, my viewpoints, my feelings. Now my thoughts are jarred in my mind and that's where I oppress them to stay. My brain is on the verge of vomiting out every notion and contemplation I've reflected on this past year, and I beieve that a mental excretion would not be so bad an action at this point. My life could not get any more uneventful as of now. I always make the resolve to be more spontaneous and not deride of meeting of new people but rather cherish it, however, my steadfastness to the solution often fluctuates.
Which is kind of funny now that I think about it, because my orthodontist told me that I am a very inconsistent and non-cooperative patient on my last visit to her. And she also told me that I'm getting my brace off in 3-5 months, but I digress.

I look back on my doodles and I think-- most of my old work is essentially unrefined scribbles, but my persona could not be any moreso fittingly characterized.

I would be the old lady in this video, and life would be the man in the car.

Anyhow, I found the Cinco de Mayo assembly enjoyable to some extent today, moreso than the PCN assembly. The PCN assembly was exceedingly unappealing to me; everything was particularly irritating, with the exception of a one or two acts. I don't know, maybe it's just because I favor the Mexican culture over my Philippine heritage. And I ask, so what? if that is the case. Their cultual attire is beyond badass, and I am dying to get my hands on an authentic Mexican dress-- the design and embroidery detail is gorgeous. And if you didn't know, I love love love love LOVE Mexican food. Plus, Dia de Los Muertos? Again, infinitely badass.

Once their current drug war ceases to exist and this swine flu bullshit blows over, Mexico is going to be on my list of prioritized countries to visit, right next to India.