It may be really gay of me to say, but I guess you never do forget your first love. He was definately not my lover by any means-- I did not love him, and he did not love me-- but regardless, he was the closest to love, or what I interpret to be love, that I have ever experienced. But the most essential conclusion I should acknowledge is that I had a great time tonight, and that's all I need to get out of it.
I still have icing on my face and I'm pretty fond of the revolting tan on my feet now.
Anyhow, this romantic urge to spend a night at the beach has been tugging at me for some time now. Summer is at the door-- the days are getting hotter and longer, there seems to be an irritatingly excessive amount of sunshine, and I now often wake up in a pool of my own sweat. I highly dislike summer. Maybe if I could somehow catch that "summer boyfriend", then maybe it won't be so bad this year because at least I'll have someone to spend it with. But I know. He knows. And everybody else knows that it aint' happenin', haha. Still, I'm dying to spend that night wrapped in a blanket in front of a bonfire, resting my head on the shoulders of somebody I care differently for. HAHAHAHAH. I hate how gay I can be sometimes, but hey, what can I do or say to justify it?